Wednesday, 23 April 2014: One Year, Three Weeks and One Day Old.
Sadly, I had to make the call to stop expressing milk at work today.
Even though I’ve only been back in the office a couple of weeks, I’m already feeling swamped and finding time to express is becoming more and more difficult.
Although I know I can get everything done at work during my part time hours, it means using every minute effectively to ensure no time is wasted.
It feels contradictory to put “time wasting” and “breast feeding” in the same sentence, and it kills me to think I’m putting work ahead of Ayla.
But the benefits of working part time are outweighing the need for me to be religious about Ayla’s breast milk consumption, so it seems like my days of sitting in the storeroom pumping milk are over.
Monday, 14 April 2014; One Year, One Week and Six Days Old.
“Ayla needs some more milk Mumma!” said the ladies at day care this afternoon when I walked in.
“Oh no!” said I.
Since Ayla started day care last week I’ve been sending her with 2x 100ml pouches of expressed milk to last her the 7 hours she’s in care.
Admittedly it didn’t look like much but it’s hard to tell how much Ayla gets when she drinks directly, and 100ml seems to be the average amount I can express in any one sitting.
But as it turns out 200ml of milk per day, plus Ayla’s evening feed her bedtime feed and her through-the-night feeds just mustn’t be enough for her growing one year old body!
To make matters worse I have been sick with Tonsilitis since Saturday (will my little family ever be all well at the same time ??) and my supply has started to dwindle; today I was lucky to get a combined 100ml from both expressing sessions!
So as a temporary supplement for breast milk, the day care mums and I decided to try Ayla on one cows milk bottle per day, which will be diluted by 50% water, at least until my milk comes back or in the worst case scenario dries up all together.
So tonight as bed time rolled around Ayla just wouldn’t settle. My breasts were empty and I damned my stupid unrelenting fever for drawing out all my body’s goodness and making my Baby Ayla hungry.
With literally not one single drop coming out, I decided to bring forward the cows milk:water trial to see if Ayla would take to it.
She did! Ayla drank the whole lot from a bottle… That I fed her! That’s two more firsts right there!
Let’s just hope her belly agrees 🙂