Friday, 24 May 2014: One Year and Fifty Three Days Old.
Ayla is such a little helper, it’s adorable.
This morning as we were getting ready for the day Ayla picked up a tissue and started wiping at some spilt water in the kitchen.
A little later Ayla had found a baby wipe and was pretending to blow her nose and wipe her face with it, complete with realistic sniffing sound effects.
While I putting on my make up in the bedroom Ayla was picking out shoes for me to wear, showing me each one she found as if to ask “these ones mum?”.
Then when the time came for me to put Ayla’s shoes on she wanted to do it all herself, but I settled for a compromise and let her try to do the left one while I did the right.
Cutest of all was this evening though when Ayla and I got home to discover a parcel of new little girls clothes sent to us from her Granddad.
Ayla, in true helper style, started trying to put them on… All of them… At once!
Ayla loved her new clothes so much that after realising she couldn’t wear them decided to kiss and hug instead, before trying to put them away in my handbag.
Thursday, 15 May 2014: One Year and Forty Five Days Old.
Ayla’s getting to the age now where she loves dressing up.
It’s not uncommon for me to find her in our bedroom with a pair of my underpants on her head (charming) or in her own room pulling out the duty laundry and trying to re-wear her outfits.
Ayla’s also taken a recent interest in my shoes, particularly now that I’m back at work and my poor old thongs have been relegated to weekends.
This morning however I gave Ayla her first piece of costume jewellery to play with and without a moment thought Ayla began adorning her neck with a long strand of plastic pearls.
What was cutest of all was that Ayla seemed to know they were pretty because she almost blushed when she put them on.
Complete with a one-shoulder shrug, half a smile and a tilt of the head Ayla was the epitome of a little girl pretending to be a princess.
Monday, 31 March 2014: Fifty Two Weeks Old.
It’s hard to believe that this time last year I was in hospital, pacing up and down my room in the birthing ward trying to control my contractions.
Tonight, I sit with my daughter in her room while she feeds like a champ and drifts off into dreamland for the last time in her infancy.
Tomorrow Ayla will be one year old.
So much has happened in the past year that its hard to remember life before Ayla.
But at the same time it’s been the fastest twelve months of my life.
There is absolutely no way I could go back and explain to “in labour” me what to expect when 4.03am comes around and I get to hold my Baby Ayla for the first time.
There’s also no words to explain the days, weeks and months that follow because it is simply, and beautifully, a live-it-yourself experience.
I am so happy and proud that Ayla is turning one, partly because its a celebration of her life to date and partly because its only the first of so many wonderful, enriching, challenging, beautiful, enlightening and precious years to come.
Monday, 24 March 2014: Fifty One Weeks Old
Ayla is all better again thank goodness; although she’s still got no appetite for solids, Ayla has able to keep down full feeds of milk and plenty of water all day.
Hubby is tonnes happier than he has been these past few days as well, and he was finally keen to get out and about and do some exploring, but there was just one problem….
Today it is me who is sick.
I now have so much more sympathy for what Hubby and Ayla have been through and I hope to goodness this horrid bug doesn’t down me for days.
I feel terrible for letting the team down. Today, one of our last days on holiday, and all I wanted to do was sleep.
After literally hours in bed while Hubby sat by the pool with Ayla I was finally able to manage a trip down to the beach for a swim, and of course another rest.
Tomorrow is our last full day of holidays and I hate the idea that all three of us have spent more than half the trip sick!
I’m just glad that it’s not our first time to Thailand, and that all we really wanted to do here was relax, rest and recuperate, which I guess we’re still on track for achieving!
I was also grateful for Ayla today, who managed to put a smile on my face when she started putting on my clothes!
It was the first time Ayla’s ever tried dressing up and when I found her on the bed with my bikini top correctly around her neck and the bottoms in her hand I couldn’t help but laugh – my little girl’s growing up!
Thursday, 24 October 2013: Two Hundred and Six Days Old.
My little girl
How does this happen,
This bond that we have?
Where does it come from
And what keeps it here?
You’re part of me now,
The best part of all,
You’re my breath and my heart
My life, and my soul.
I look at your face
And my stomach does flips,
I caress your soft skin
And bumps cover my flesh.
I smile at you
And you beam at me back
I sing and you listen
To my voice as it cracks.
You know nothing but love
And know nothing of fear
Your the purest of pure;
Real, honest and fair.
You’re destined for greatness,
For happiness and truth
You will change the world
Even if just for a few.
You’ve brought light to my life
In ways you’ll not know
’til one day you too
Kiss your girl on her nose.
May your journey be grand
And your story be great
For you are my daughter,
My little girl.