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Gnasher

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Friday, 18April 2014: One Year, Two Weeks and Three Days Old

Ayla has started grinding her teeth together!

It’s horrific; like scraping fingernails along a black board, which ironically is a sound Ayla will probably never hear or understand.

And even though Ayla looks damn cute when she juts out her bottom jaw and gnashes her four front (and only) teeth together, I just can’t stand it.

I think the grinding is a cruel product of learning to brush her teeth because at this stage (thankfully!) Ayla only seems to grind when she sees her toothbrush or we talk about brushing them.

I have been trying not to make a fuss hoping desperately she’ll forget how to do it soon, but for now its goosebumps all round.

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Easter basket

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Thursday, 17 April 2014: One Year, Two Weeks and Two Days Old.

Ayla came home from day care today with her first ever hand-made Easter basket!!

It looks like a paper template the kids painted themselves and then the day care mums must have stapled them together to make the baskets.

The front is shaped like a bunny’s face and the back even had a cotton ball tail (except it didn’t take long for Ayla to rip hers off).

Seeing Ayla with her first official “school” art was exactly what I needed this afternoon, after spending the whole day in bed.

Thankfully Hubby started R&R today which meant he was around to take Ayla to day care this morning and pick her up this afternoon.

While I was a little upset at first that I wasn’t there to pick Ayla up on such a momentous day, seeing her get out of the car at home with her Easter basket was so cute!

Ayla seemed to know her little Easter basket was special because she clung on to it for ages after she got home.

Hubby and I eventually gave in and let Ayla have one of the Easter eggs that had come in the basket (the only one left after Hubby had raided it!)

It was Ayla’s first ever Easter egg and she loved it, of course!

PS – Ayla’s fifth tooth cut through today. It’s her top left incisor (fang). Maybe that’s why her sleeping’s been unsettled lately.

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Argh!!

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Wednesday, 16 April 2014: One Year, Two Weeks and One Day Old.

Argh!! I’m so tired, so sick, stressed and my boobs are turning into empty sacks while I watch.

I’m over of having sickness in this household. Over of sleepless nights. I feel absolutely terrible and I can feel my body shutting down!!

So much for the “solution” to a full nights sleep I thought I’d discovered yesterday…

After not going to bed until 9pm Ayla was up at midnight, then again 2.45am, 4.00am, 5.00am and 6.00am.

At the midnight feed I gave Ayla another bottle, then at 2.45am I gave her breast milk.

Then after that there’s was nothing more I could do except lie listening to Ayla cry through the monitor, waiting for her go back to sleep herself.

Hubby was right there with me of course and he was willing to get up and give resettling his best shot, but Ayla’s tears are for mummy, nothing else.

I can understand where Ayla’s coming from, everything she’s experienced in life so far has been turned on its head and if I were her I’d be wanting cuddles too.

But where I’d usually enjoy our quite closeness in the wee hours, last night my body just wouldn’t let me.

Finally my fever has broken but I’m sicker today than yesterday! The antibiotics are making me ill and I feel weak from having had no appetite for days.

To add insult to injury I feel terrible for Baby Ayla who needs me to be there for her as she adjusts to her new routine but I can’t even provide her with the milk she’s relied on her whole life.

It sucks. I really want to be writing about happy things, new memories and fun adventures but it’s seems to be a downward slope at the moment! I’m sure things will turn around soon, and hopefully I’ll feel better after some sleep!

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Ten hours!

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Tuesday, 15 April 2014: One Year and Two Weeks Old.

I don’t want to jinx myself buuutttt Ayla slept ten hours straight last night!

The only thing I can attribute it to is the bottle of diluted cows milk she had at bed time and the zzzz’s were like music to my aching tonsilitis ears.

Mind you, that doesn’t meant I slept for 10 hours even though I did go to bed at 8pm when Ayla did.

No, instead I was up half the night nursing fever, chills, pain and killer night sweats.

But still, is it a new leaf?! Have we found an answer for a full night’s sleep? Gosh I hope so.

Even better than Ayla’s overnight sleep was her three hour nap today, which I took FULL advantage of by spending it sound asleep on the couch.

I had the day off work and wasn’t sure what to do with Ayla, whether to get up early and take her to day care like usual, or let her (and me!) sleep until we were ready the take the day as it comes.

I chose the latter.

It meant we didn’t get up til after 8am, and at 10.30am, Ayla was back snoozing in her cot!

When she woke at 1.30pm I opted to take her to day care so I could continue my wallowing in peace, but alas I felt so guilty for dropping her off while I was at home the sleep I drifted into was fitful.

Never mind. Another early night, 10 hours of uninterrupted sleep and a good coffee in the morning and I should be right! (Touch wood).

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More milk Mumma!

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Monday, 14 April 2014; One Year, One Week and Six Days Old.

“Ayla needs some more milk Mumma!” said the ladies at day care this afternoon when I walked in.

“Oh no!” said I.

Since Ayla started day care last week I’ve been sending her with 2x 100ml pouches of expressed milk to last her the 7 hours she’s in care.

Admittedly it didn’t look like much but it’s hard to tell how much Ayla gets when she drinks directly, and 100ml seems to be the average amount I can express in any one sitting.

But as it turns out 200ml of milk per day, plus Ayla’s evening feed her bedtime feed and her through-the-night feeds just mustn’t be enough for her growing one year old body!

To make matters worse I have been sick with Tonsilitis since Saturday (will my little family ever be all well at the same time ??) and my supply has started to dwindle; today I was lucky to get a combined 100ml from both expressing sessions!

So as a temporary supplement for breast milk, the day care mums and I decided to try Ayla on one cows milk bottle per day, which will be diluted by 50% water, at least until my milk comes back or in the worst case scenario dries up all together.

So tonight as bed time rolled around Ayla just wouldn’t settle. My breasts were empty and I damned my stupid unrelenting fever for drawing out all my body’s goodness and making my Baby Ayla hungry.

With literally not one single drop coming out, I decided to bring forward the cows milk:water trial to see if Ayla would take to it.

She did! Ayla drank the whole lot from a bottle… That I fed her! That’s two more firsts right there!

Let’s just hope her belly agrees :)

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First toothbrush

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Sunday, 13 April 2014: One Year, One Week and Five Days Old.

Ayla got her first toothbrush and she’s not afraid to use it!

All this week Ayla’s watched me brush my teeth with so much interest, that I’ve been handing it over to her to play with each morning.

So I decided the time had come to get Ayla her own toothbrush, she does have four teeth after all!

Tonight Ayla had her first go at using it and she knew exactly what to do!

It was so cute watching Ayla sit in the bathroom sink and brush her tiny milk teeth, although admittedly there was a lot more sucking and chewing going on than brushing!

Ayla even knew to put the head of the toothbrush under the running tap before using it, and she even started to learn how to bare her teeth so I can get in and give them a proper clean.

Ayla loved having her own toothbrush so much that she wouldn’t put it down, carrying it with her the whole time we were getting her ready for bed.

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A new kind of smile

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Saturday, 12 April 2014: One Year, One Week and Four Days Old.

Ayla has perfected a new kind of smile!

Until recently Ayla had only one smile, the “full-on, wide-mouthed toothy grin” that she flashed at every opportunity.

Now however Ayla has a new smile, which I refer to as her “sly” cheeky smile.

This new smile has added a whole new dimension to Ayla’s personality, and I can see I’m going to have my work cut out for me with not one, but TWO cheeky jokers in the house.

The new smile goes like this;

Ayla presses her lips together and lets them curl up ever so slightly at the edges so that sometimes it looks a little bit lopsided.

Then Ayla tilts her head down and away, glancing back with her eyes as if what I’m doing is funny but too dorky for her to smile at!

It actually makes me feel embarrassed and gets a laugh every time… How can a one year old know about sarcasm!

I almost expect Ayla to roll her eyes and say “ohhhh Muummmm!” with a subtle chuckle, but I guess there’s still plenty of time for that!